And then a strange fear gripped me

I was asked to do a bit of research on social media monitoring for work. And as I was speaking with a consultant, I left my body for a moment as I heard myself say.
"I'm on twitter and I have a blog."

Holy fuck did I just say that? Where is the control-Z when you need it. Luckily it was just she and I...
"Really, you should send me the links."
Seriously lady, you don't need to read my 500 word missive on how I hurt myself during sex or how I like to rock really freaking hard.

"Ummmm... well, it's not about work really."
"Oh come on..."

Don't think so.

And as I have explained, I do feel terribly terribly boring but at the same time... do I need her to see this? Maybe I just want to come here and spew off and write the odd half decent sentence. Maybe I don't need the "professional life" intersecting with the personal. Which is stupid I realize since I, by its very nature, work intrudes on my time. There are, in fact, a few work-type colleagues, who if they looked, could find the blog and that's ok. (The new VP for one -- as I nod and wave, skip that post about sex please, it was for a fundraiser or something.)

Thing is I like my little blog... but I don't want to have to edit too much. But it's definitely not anonymous either...

All to say she's not getting that email.

Comments

[Penelope]

I would die if they knew about my blog at work! Only 2 people know and they are the 2 I would trust with my life, just about. The others? No way!!!

[J.]

I'm in the same boat as you. I'd like to share some of my stuff with my coworkers, but some not so much. Not that I've blogged about them or anything, but a Blog is sort of like a diary. As much as it's for anyone and everyone to read.. it's still a little personal.

[jobthingy]

see i dont give a shit who reads my blog. coworkers have, friends, moms friends. i dont care. its my whacky ramblings. they know i am nutty. i figure if they choose to read it its their loss (of time) *snickers*

[Princess of the Universe]

Blog + work = bad. (In my mind anyhow...)

[delmer]

I don't tell people I have a blog either. If they find it, fine. But I'm unlikely to encourage people I meet to come and read about the times (yes, more than one) I almost fell off the toilet.

And during those moments I'm caught off-guard and say things like "I have a blog," I'm on Facebook" or "I have a Twitter account," I feel like the biggest nerd ever.

[Marcy]

I don't work but I can TOTALLY understand the fear. The last thing I need is my Mom and Grandma reading my blog HAHA

[Kevin Spencer]

No one at my work has figured out I have a blog even though my URL is not exactly that hard to figure out. Ahem. But then again, none of them are the blogging/facebook/whatever type so the chances of them thinking one day "I know, I'll see if Kev has a blog" are kinda remote. I mean, I've been blogging since 2001 and they haven't discovered it yet ;-)

[Amanda]

So I work for an internet company...had my blog for a year before I even let anyone at work know...really don't they know enough about me

[Database Diva]

I don't share my blog, etc, with my co-workers, either. I also don't share it with my family and non-running friends. I know why I don't share it with co-workers. I'm really into work/home boundaries. I haven't a clue why I don't share with the others, except that they don't get the running thing, so they wouldn't get the running/blogging thing either. But if they want to look me up, that would be OK.

I made the mistake of wearing my "Diva" necklace to a meeting with my new boss. Now she refers to me as Diva. That was a little uncomfortable.

[Mimi]

My blog was set up for the benefit of my mother-in-law, whom I adore. It let's me rant, and gives her insight into life at this end of the country.

I haven't really shared it with any one and don't have a great or broad readership. Sometimes I wish I was more popular, but then, really, who am I kidding, I've never been that kind of person. Why would I want to start now?

[Selma]

Well, it would be embarrassing if the people at work read my blog as I often talk about how much I hate them. Could be hard to talk my way out of that one. Actually, I don't think they even know what a blog is. Probably best if it stays that way!

[180/360]

I've had that same out of body experience saying "I twitter and blog." I don't know why I can't really totally embrace them and yet I can't quit them either. Only a few of my real life friends know about my blog and I like it that way.

PS. Thanks for your comment today. I'm glad that I'm not the only one out there feeling this way. It was great that at least a few people got it!